Electricbones’s Weblog

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be in a place where I feel like I am fully satisfied. I know satisfaction is found in Christ, but I just don’t think that will happen here to the complete (on earth). It feels as though there is often such a disconnect between that idea of full Satisfaction (unearthly) and then the finding of things that can keep us satiated (earthly).  A child denied full knowledge for their own sake; a poor reflection as in a mirror (1 Cor. 13:12).  It reminds me of Michelangelo’s Sistine Chapel fresco of Adam and God… seeing God, knowing He’s there, hearing His voice, feeling His presence, etc. but we can’t quite fully “reach” Him (in understanding, in His full glory, etc.) We are still running around in these bodies, living in these earthly tents (2 Cor. 5:1).

In a more transactional sense, there are oftentimes these monumental tasks that we feel that by accomplishing will somehow help us to breathe easier.  We set huge expectations for how much easier and better things will be once this task is through but then, in some shock to us, life still comes-trials, more waiting, more unknown. I don’t think my underlying Peace (you know? that Current of Hope that runs through us) has been shaken lately (I just often ‘forget’ about it), but the things that lie more towards the surface, the little divots that beg to be filled with something right away, get filled and the water just slips away. As when you dig a hole in the sand and try to fill it with water, but it oftentimes just sinks away. And you keep rushing back to your water bucket to keep it filled, but it never can be.